Giving

This weeks theme at mamasaysom is Giving.
As a Mother this is a constant theme in my life. Giving my time, my patience, my heart, my sleep, and my last bite of brownie to my two children. I give without hesitation, well, except for the brownie.
I give almost automatically, as if it were wired into me the moment Zionna started growing inside of me. I gave milk so much that now, even six months past Liam weaning, my body still tries to give more. Giving comes naturally with Mothering and hopefully it flows outside of my Mother roll and into every roll I play in this world.
Everyday I am giving my children me, all of me, and today I fear I gave them a me that would have been better off never received. I was feeling sick, and grumpy, and lacking the good attitude I so often remind them to show me. "Give with a joyful heart." I am afraid I did not. Tomorrow I will try harder, and if I'm lucky my cold will have gone away making this a little easier to do.

New

New is something I try to avoid. New is very shiny, enticing, and works extra hard to make Old feel inadequate and completely outdated. New screams at me from billboards, store windows, glitzy metal zipping past me in the fast lane. New demands attention so much that it often uses force to achieve my glances. New dances on banners atop my email and pops up to surprise me on my favorite websites. How did New know I was reading a topic about him? New knows just how to manipulate me and draw me into wanting more, more, more. Does Old stand a chance against this over achieving, in your face, always attainable, very attractive, New? I would like to think so, but it's going to be a fight!


What do other mamas have to say about New?

New telephone number

The cellphones are gone!
If you didn't get my mass-email of the new number and you think that you should have please let me know. I'm sure I missed some of you as I had a toddler on my lap as I was sending it out.
If you are a telemarketer, circus clown, or pro golfer then you were left out on purpose and please go away!